It's 3 am...

You may ask yourself how motherhood is working out for me.  You also may not, so this is not the post for you.

Let me describe my current situation.  I'm typing this at 3 am after my longest sleep I'll get all night (a HUGE thank you to my amazing husband for taking the 1230 shift each night.)- about 4 hours.  I'm typing one handed as Emily just fell asleep in my arms after a very eventful poop.  I'm loopy after taking percocet (gotta love narcotics) to fend off a gallbladder attack (which didmt go away after pregnancy like I'd hoped) but I cant sleep it off thanks to the little pooping booger.  I smell like milk and spit up.  My living room looks like a laundry bomb went off- not the clean kind.  The main thing I use is not the games, laptops, piano or craft items we have.  Nope, its my breast pump.  Scariest sounding machine ever.  I miss the one at the hospital, it was quiet and pretty.  And yes, I just referred to a breast pump as pretty because thats my life right now, haha.

Motherhood...
- sucks when the baby eats every two hours like clockwork.  from me.
- only lets me sleep about 90 minutes at a time
- is full of poopy diapers.  my daily entertainment is a diaper's fullness.
- is fun to talk about with other moms
- is like a special club of which I'm now a permanent member
- for me means breastfeeding.  I don't like b.feeding.  I have severe limits to patience for it- I like my pump better than Emily.  It doesnt pull away, refuse to latch, OR fall asleep.  I wonder if I can adopt it?
- is expensive.  Things I never thought I needed are now necessary (and oddly exciting) to acquire.  Example: I got a bottle brush today and was SO excited to finally get in the bottom bottle crevices!
- is sticky.  Breastmilk is SO sticky and gets everywhere- especially when I overshoot... lol.
- is special.  As Emily falls asleep she smiles a lot.  It's sweet.  She is even starting to smile when she is awake.
- is noisy.  This baby is such a chatterbox.  She grunts, growls, squeaks, snorts, snores, cries, coos, moans, and whines.  Each in an hour.
- means laundry that WILL NEVER GO AWAY
- is full of creativity. Examples include ways to hold a bottle while doing other activities, finding ways to shower ever faster (Emily is perfectly happy until the moment I step into the water), learning ways to function one handed- she's a cuddle demander.
- requires more patience than I sometimes have.

I'm incredibly lucky to get to be a mom.  I love every minute.